[0925-ping] Happy Bday DUCKY!!

Happy birthday Dear!!
I don't know what to say but hope you get an American style party and have fun!! Don't get too drunk!!
It must be great  that there's one birthday in other country! (I guess
Yeah enjoy your day and I had to go sleeping xD
I love you!!


give you a present below:







THAT'S NOW!!!!!!









not funny at all okay.

anyway you laugh.
laugh now!

okay I really need to sleep now lol
Love love love

this is so ugly.

[0919-fang] full moon

    Hi Pin Ren. I am experiencing the ultimate internet breakdown these days. But I've been able to connect to wifi for already half hour now. What a bless! (See, my wish is so small now.)

    Anyway, I think I am getting better now. I mean in whole. I did my first presentation here this afternoon. It was just a  2-minutes speech about ourselves but it's the first presentation for me here, excluding those times when the teacher asks everyone to speak when he poses a question. I was freaking out before this because I was not well-prepared and I was still thinking about what to talk about before the class started. But eventually I made it through and it's not that bad. I am having another presentation next week and the week after, both 5 minutes. They're more difficult and require a lot of preparation and information hunting, but at least now I know what it feels like to stand in front of the class.

    I have sooooo many deadlines this two weeks. 這邊老師真的沒有在客氣的。（忍不住打中文）Every course has its assignment almost every week. I think it makes me have to concentrate and put much effort on living my life here now, which I think it's a good thing. I need that. I just hope that I can handle them all while I have fun doing other things.

    I went to the ballroom dance club today. We did waltz. I was just talking to 子翊 about this. He said that if he go study abroad one day, he will go to ballroom dance club to meet pretty chicks haha. 嘖嘖! Well but I have to say, the proportion of handsome boys and beautiful girls are not very high lol. But I still think it's pretty interesting and I probably will go back again next week (since it's free!)

    Have fun at your grand's house and Ming Hong's too. :-)

    Travis tomorrow!!!!!!!!!

[0915-ping] I started to be annoyed

    There's a lot of discussion classes and It's  hard to discuss with people you don't know well and when things are not as your wish, it's really annoying and frustrating. But all the people agree with something you don't, you can't say anything or may become too annoying like, ''why are you so insist?"
Don't like this feeling. But perhaps this is the test for me. But I think I'm already an easily-giving-in person. Anyway I guess I just want to prove myself but I don't have to. Lots of discussion class. Killing me.
    I'm drawing a contest, but I'm stuck. I hate I'm weak with drawing background. And I realize I still really suck at illustration if I want to take it as a career.
    貞懿's so cute, she is serious about that we're going to perform at Artfest thing. I hope I still got time to fulfill the lil dream of mine.
    Hey why don't you start cooking or baking? Make some deli-s and make us jealous! Also kill some time.
   I love King of convenience.
   I finish season4 and it won't let me watch season5 Idk why.

[0910-fang] why is my life so boring here

Hello dear Pin Ren, (why do I write in the form of a letter?)

     My life here has been so boring, so dull. I thought this journey, this adventure should be very interesting! Well I mean, it's not bad. Nothing dreadful happens and I didn't get discriminated against so far (at least not that I can perceive it.) But nothing fun happens either. I didn't get to know any American now (except for my roommates), which I already know it's hard before I got here. But I actually didn't meet any international students that I sincerely like so far. I think I am so unsociable now but I don't mean to be so. I just haven't met anyone that I am willing to try hard to be friends with. I really hope that I can meet someone who can make me feel "hey he/she is so nice and so interesting! I like him/her and I want to be friends with him/her!" But if I didn't really meet someone like this, it's okay. It’s just that this four month will feel longer, I guess.

    You know what? This kind of lead to another problem. I think I’m independent enough and (sometimes) capable of doing lots of things by myself. But I can’t! For one thing, there’s literally no place to have fun around campus. All the interesting stuff requires a car or a public transportation, which is still pretty far because I have to walk there. For another, Maryland is a state that has relatively high crime rate, so we shall not wander around outside after dark. But I have no good company here. It’s actually not that big a deal because I have lots of reading and assignments awaiting me. But now the thing that bothers me is that, I want to go to the 1975 performance! Yet it’s not a concert, it’s just a live performance in a live house, which I think is pretty dangerous for me to go alone at night. Even if I’m willing to ask the friends who I currently don’t really enjoy being with to go with me, I don’t think they’re interested in this. = = The 1975 is so nameless.

   Or is it because I really miss you guys so that all these problems exist? I really miss fooling around with you. I think it’s bad that I am kind of obsessing with things and my relationships back in Taiwan. I want to feel there’s no estranging with anyone at all, but maybe it’s this thought that pulls my feet and makes me having trouble enjoy my life here.

   Now I feel sad after writing this. L I haven’t really think of these things before I write.

   By the way, I think my speaking skill hasn’t made any progress (maybe because my lack of people to talk to!!!). I am more daring to speak but I still speak poorly. Oh well.

   Hope to hear from you soon J Have a great new semester!

[0908-ping] sorry for lagging

I thought I would post a lot but it turns out that we've been chatting all the time so. 

Anyways, my recent life is totally a loser, but in a good way, because compare to last few weeks though I was still doing nothing at all, I still got this huge stress about making money and growing up stuff like that in me, so exterior I've done nothing but I can't relax, either.  And it's weird that the new semester is about to begin but I got no feelings in my mind just like another usual day. and I literally do nothing but keep watching friends like crazy and start drawing my friend and it turns out pretty good that I'm a lil surprised. Btw I start to like Joey and Chandler. They are so cute! 

And I think I was deeply impacted by these sitcoms that I now become so open(in mind). For example, I went to the camp and First look fair and I saw some cute boys and I thought, ''Oh, cute! maybe we can have some coffee." or the swimming club got girls in swimming suits and I was like" Hey nice ass!" Oh no no no that was not right LOL. 

Btw a lil embarrassing story from First look affair. I went with yu shuang and we were strolling along the Yehlin Avenue and this very cute and tall girl standing in the middle of the road with the army clothes and a gun just got me stunned and I said to Y.S. "OMG!!! There's a pretty girl in Surviving Game club! Look! " and we stood at her back and stared at her and all of a sudden she saw us looking at her and she came over and gave us a flyer and said welcome then!! I realized he is a pretty pretty BOY!! So embarrassing but he is really pretty tho. And TALL!

And I still can't make the choice, maybe it'll be none of them cuz I am too busy.

I think I've been really grumpy recently and part of the reason comes from my family. I  don't know what's going on but sometimes they're just unreasonable. My father the most. Every time he said something I just wanted to attack back but I always murmured inside my head. And I found my dad and my mom fighting more and more. Not serious fight but just complain about each other, but most of the time it's just to opposite for the sake of opposing. And I hate being in the middle of them. 

Oh I've kept spreading your life stories to friends around!!:D

And now I have to go out so ttyl!!