[1123-fang] thanksgiving

     Wow it's been a long time since I write a post. Sorry about that... I was super busy and then super lazy after that. My time management is miserable.

     Okay it's thanksgiving next week and I got five days off in total!!! Next Tuesday I'm gonna watch a NBA basketball game with a guy from Hong Kong. And then I'll probably go to Philadelphia with Schirin for two days. And for Thursday the Thanksgiving to another roommate's house, hopefully have some traditional big Thanksgiving meal!!!!! On Friday, Han Chiu will be in DC so hopefully we'll meet. Then at night, my roommates and I want to go out dancing together. Sounds like an exciting week, doesn't it? Oh gosh I'm so worried about my final reports....

     Nothing really happened lately so I don't know what to share with you. Well I went to a birthday party tonight. It's not a crazy college student party. It's actually a really nice and warm and cute dinner party at her relative's house. I met the nicest people there. And I saw some little kids (3 years old <3) and they're so adorable. I really wish that I can have a warm and sweet family like that in the future.

    I cannot believe that I only got 3 weeks left in University of Maryland. I think it's not an ecstatic experience in all, but it's full of impact and new stuffs. I'll miss the time here. But I'm also eager to go home too. :)

[1109] Why am I still here?

I had artfest workshop today and I'm still here posting article.
lol

Mandy, yuting and Michelle and I had dinner yesterday and chatting about our relationships. It was kinda, remind me some memories. Since I don't have any target now which I really want one, I can only think of something in the past. Even it's been so long ago but I still feel a lil sad about this. And after dinner we were leaving and suddenly Mandy found out my first ex and his gf were eating outside the restaurant (their seats are outside). I was panic cuz I haven't met him for a long long time. So I decided to pretend not seeing hime and rapidly walk away. Actually I've been thinking about talking to him again but I don't think I was prepared to see him, especially in this case.

    And then this morning I found out a letter which I thought it's from my second ex so I opened it and read, and surprisingly found out it's from first ex.
I don't have much memories about us but reading the words he wrote me makes me feel really sad. I already forget all the hatreds back then, now I can only think why I would hurt someone who loved me so much.  

    I wish I would never hurt someone who loves me. And it's so lucky to have someone loves you. I waste the chances.

   yeah I'm not that sad just feel lil blue about relationships. And Damn I want a boyfriend so much!!!! though I've been hunting cute girls but I still want a boyfriend! (not convincing at all)

 get a boy back or we will be blue together.
or plan B you and I make a couple. (I recommend you the first plan)


done I'm going to sleep, ciao.

[1021-fang] after the midterm

    Oppositely, I feel quite idle these days because I finished all my midterms last week. They're not so bad! They're pretty easy comparing to exams in Taiwan, but I guess it's also because the classes I chose here are the more light and easy ones.
    I am getting along with my Germany roommate more and more. And some of the other international students too. This is quite good and I really enjoy hanging out with them. Lately I finally got the feeling that I'll be missing some of them when I go back to Taiwan. (Good sign! The means that I am really starting to like my friends here.) But I still miss Taiwan so bad and will want to go back soon. Even though that means facing the reality and not to go out and have fun every week. And the graduation season... omg.
   My computer network is still not stably working. My parents say that I can buy a tablet, but I am still struggling. I mean, of course I want one but I also want to save money for them. We'll see.
   I want to write a letter but I can't find the right paper anywhere. Maybe I'll just use notebook paper lol do you mind?
   Jia yo on everything!

[1014-ping] my recent life

Sorry it's been two weeks. Start getting busy.
Well  I really want to sleep early because I find out if I stay up late I can't get up until noon which is a waste of time. And I really want to go to gym in the morning but I failed everytime. But works' getting more and more I can't just ignore fb and go to sleep. So I guess I should be more efficient.
And I really want to chat with you while I still have things to do.

I'm involved in lots of activities and I'm really buzy, but I don't want to show any busy look or grumpy expression but it's hard not to moan while you do have lots of works. Because I made the choice of being busy so I can't complain. I hope I can be happy in all these activities.

Okay I have to do something now.
Enjoy your day!

[1003-fang] money money money

Hi Pin Ren,

Once again, I am so happy that I got the first prize, well, not the first but at least it’s the only prize, of your game! Yayaya we’re totally in sync! Lol

I’m going to a movie tomorrow night. The movie is called “Gravity” starring George Clooney and Sandra Bullock. I’ve never heard of it and it’s a 3D sci-fi movie, which I normally wouldn’t like, but I like both actors and the reviews say it’s great. So anyway, looking forward to it. It’ll be my first time watching movie here! But I kind of hope it’s the last time though lol. Because it can be so expensive.

My concern these days is that, I think I’ve already spent so much money, but it’s only been a month! Like my canoeing trip last week costs 65 dollars, and two weeks later I’m going to an amusement park and you know the entrance fee cannot be cheap. Also, I plan to go to New York to visit Han Chiu on November (super excited!!!!!!). In addition, she invited me to join her Christmas vacation with her family in Phoenix, which is way across the country. I’m very grateful for that offer and I would really like to go, but that means plane ticket. And there’re several events during this semester too. It can be a massive number when adding them all up. Now I’m seriously thinking about the 1975 concert. It’s next Friday and I haven’t ask someone to go with me. I think, I might be able to have someone to go with me, but that’s another expense again! Cry.

   I really need to find a job immediately when I go back to Taiwan. I hope it's a tutor job so I can make more money in less time. 

Anyway, the bikini I ordered from the internet has arrived. It’s not too bad but it doesn’t really fit perfectly. Anyway, I look so fat (cry). Is this the alarm that tells me to lose weight? I sure have to woowoo.

The internet breakdown came back to me again lately. I can’t believe this. Sometimes it works but sometimes it doesn’t.

How’s your job doing? And the art-fest? And all your classes? J

[0925-ping] Happy Bday DUCKY!!

Happy birthday Dear!!
I don't know what to say but hope you get an American style party and have fun!! Don't get too drunk!!
It must be great  that there's one birthday in other country! (I guess
Yeah enjoy your day and I had to go sleeping xD
I love you!!


give you a present below:







THAT'S NOW!!!!!!









not funny at all okay.

anyway you laugh.
laugh now!

okay I really need to sleep now lol
Love love love

this is so ugly.

[0919-fang] full moon

    Hi Pin Ren. I am experiencing the ultimate internet breakdown these days. But I've been able to connect to wifi for already half hour now. What a bless! (See, my wish is so small now.)

    Anyway, I think I am getting better now. I mean in whole. I did my first presentation here this afternoon. It was just a  2-minutes speech about ourselves but it's the first presentation for me here, excluding those times when the teacher asks everyone to speak when he poses a question. I was freaking out before this because I was not well-prepared and I was still thinking about what to talk about before the class started. But eventually I made it through and it's not that bad. I am having another presentation next week and the week after, both 5 minutes. They're more difficult and require a lot of preparation and information hunting, but at least now I know what it feels like to stand in front of the class.

    I have sooooo many deadlines this two weeks. 這邊老師真的沒有在客氣的。（忍不住打中文）Every course has its assignment almost every week. I think it makes me have to concentrate and put much effort on living my life here now, which I think it's a good thing. I need that. I just hope that I can handle them all while I have fun doing other things.

    I went to the ballroom dance club today. We did waltz. I was just talking to 子翊 about this. He said that if he go study abroad one day, he will go to ballroom dance club to meet pretty chicks haha. 嘖嘖! Well but I have to say, the proportion of handsome boys and beautiful girls are not very high lol. But I still think it's pretty interesting and I probably will go back again next week (since it's free!)

    Have fun at your grand's house and Ming Hong's too. :-)

    Travis tomorrow!!!!!!!!!

[0915-ping] I started to be annoyed

    There's a lot of discussion classes and It's  hard to discuss with people you don't know well and when things are not as your wish, it's really annoying and frustrating. But all the people agree with something you don't, you can't say anything or may become too annoying like, ''why are you so insist?"
Don't like this feeling. But perhaps this is the test for me. But I think I'm already an easily-giving-in person. Anyway I guess I just want to prove myself but I don't have to. Lots of discussion class. Killing me.
    I'm drawing a contest, but I'm stuck. I hate I'm weak with drawing background. And I realize I still really suck at illustration if I want to take it as a career.
    貞懿's so cute, she is serious about that we're going to perform at Artfest thing. I hope I still got time to fulfill the lil dream of mine.
    Hey why don't you start cooking or baking? Make some deli-s and make us jealous! Also kill some time.
   I love King of convenience.
   I finish season4 and it won't let me watch season5 Idk why.

[0910-fang] why is my life so boring here

Hello dear Pin Ren, (why do I write in the form of a letter?)

     My life here has been so boring, so dull. I thought this journey, this adventure should be very interesting! Well I mean, it's not bad. Nothing dreadful happens and I didn't get discriminated against so far (at least not that I can perceive it.) But nothing fun happens either. I didn't get to know any American now (except for my roommates), which I already know it's hard before I got here. But I actually didn't meet any international students that I sincerely like so far. I think I am so unsociable now but I don't mean to be so. I just haven't met anyone that I am willing to try hard to be friends with. I really hope that I can meet someone who can make me feel "hey he/she is so nice and so interesting! I like him/her and I want to be friends with him/her!" But if I didn't really meet someone like this, it's okay. It’s just that this four month will feel longer, I guess.

    You know what? This kind of lead to another problem. I think I’m independent enough and (sometimes) capable of doing lots of things by myself. But I can’t! For one thing, there’s literally no place to have fun around campus. All the interesting stuff requires a car or a public transportation, which is still pretty far because I have to walk there. For another, Maryland is a state that has relatively high crime rate, so we shall not wander around outside after dark. But I have no good company here. It’s actually not that big a deal because I have lots of reading and assignments awaiting me. But now the thing that bothers me is that, I want to go to the 1975 performance! Yet it’s not a concert, it’s just a live performance in a live house, which I think is pretty dangerous for me to go alone at night. Even if I’m willing to ask the friends who I currently don’t really enjoy being with to go with me, I don’t think they’re interested in this. = = The 1975 is so nameless.

   Or is it because I really miss you guys so that all these problems exist? I really miss fooling around with you. I think it’s bad that I am kind of obsessing with things and my relationships back in Taiwan. I want to feel there’s no estranging with anyone at all, but maybe it’s this thought that pulls my feet and makes me having trouble enjoy my life here.

   Now I feel sad after writing this. L I haven’t really think of these things before I write.

   By the way, I think my speaking skill hasn’t made any progress (maybe because my lack of people to talk to!!!). I am more daring to speak but I still speak poorly. Oh well.

   Hope to hear from you soon J Have a great new semester!

[0908-ping] sorry for lagging

I thought I would post a lot but it turns out that we've been chatting all the time so. 

Anyways, my recent life is totally a loser, but in a good way, because compare to last few weeks though I was still doing nothing at all, I still got this huge stress about making money and growing up stuff like that in me, so exterior I've done nothing but I can't relax, either.  And it's weird that the new semester is about to begin but I got no feelings in my mind just like another usual day. and I literally do nothing but keep watching friends like crazy and start drawing my friend and it turns out pretty good that I'm a lil surprised. Btw I start to like Joey and Chandler. They are so cute! 

And I think I was deeply impacted by these sitcoms that I now become so open(in mind). For example, I went to the camp and First look fair and I saw some cute boys and I thought, ''Oh, cute! maybe we can have some coffee." or the swimming club got girls in swimming suits and I was like" Hey nice ass!" Oh no no no that was not right LOL. 

Btw a lil embarrassing story from First look affair. I went with yu shuang and we were strolling along the Yehlin Avenue and this very cute and tall girl standing in the middle of the road with the army clothes and a gun just got me stunned and I said to Y.S. "OMG!!! There's a pretty girl in Surviving Game club! Look! " and we stood at her back and stared at her and all of a sudden she saw us looking at her and she came over and gave us a flyer and said welcome then!! I realized he is a pretty pretty BOY!! So embarrassing but he is really pretty tho. And TALL!

And I still can't make the choice, maybe it'll be none of them cuz I am too busy.

I think I've been really grumpy recently and part of the reason comes from my family. I  don't know what's going on but sometimes they're just unreasonable. My father the most. Every time he said something I just wanted to attack back but I always murmured inside my head. And I found my dad and my mom fighting more and more. Not serious fight but just complain about each other, but most of the time it's just to opposite for the sake of opposing. And I hate being in the middle of them. 

Oh I've kept spreading your life stories to friends around!!:D

And now I have to go out so ttyl!!

[0826-fang] my official first one is right here lol

Okay I'm doing okay over here. I went to the campus today and I love my room. I live in a room with that girl from German, but it's a four people condo. The living room and kitchen are big and clean. I can take photos of them next time if you want to take a look.

This editing page is so ugly. I mean, it looks good when it comes out, but not in here. Don't know why I' m saying this lol

Hey I got many chances to talk in English as soon as I moved to Maryland. The hotel service people (do they have a name= =?), the taxi driver, the clerk at every shop, and my roommates. I'll have more chances when my sister goes back to Taiwan and I officially move into my room. Kind of looking forward to it. But my sister really helped me a lot in this trip! Super appreciate.

I wish I can dream of tv series characters, too. I totally love them. Why can't I dream of them like you do??? Ughhhh jealous. You know what, I was thinking about visiting the filming places of HIMYM and Friends when I visit New York (I'm planning to go there) so I looked it up on the Internet. And ughhhh they're all filmed in Los Angeles. I thought there's a real place! Okay fine it's Hollywood again. Cry cry.

Anyway, I am doing good. But sometimes I feel boring = = I wish the school starts sooner. Maybe. I don't know. I would also love some time to 耍廢 and just watch tv series episodes after episodes. I know it's crappy but my summer is so full and I miss not doing anything.

And I miss you!
Byeeee.

[0826-ping] Hey it's the officially first one!

yo how are you there?
I've been so lazy recently, and I have a camp to attend tomorrow which creeps me out! Once again I'll be the role of team member it feels so weird, you know?
And I suddenly don't want to meet any new guys 'cause it could be so tiring.
But anyway I still got to deal with this. Wish me luck!

And I had few dreams, with Joey and Ross separately in them, lol.
I guess few more dreams can collect them all. By the way I'm in the middle of season 3.

It's a lot of stuff to deal within the two weeks left and I feel so stressful(the whole summer I guess). I haven't done many thing in my to-do list and I feel like a loser so much. I am so afraid of the unknown future that I hardly can't live a happy life for the last year. I wish someone could wake me up asap.

By the way I saw a job from the printing shop(?) in little-Fu. Do you think I should take that job?

Anyway, hope to hear from you soon! Good Luck!

Shall we make rules?

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