[1109] Why am I still here?

I had artfest workshop today and I'm still here posting article.
lol

Mandy, yuting and Michelle and I had dinner yesterday and chatting about our relationships. It was kinda, remind me some memories. Since I don't have any target now which I really want one, I can only think of something in the past. Even it's been so long ago but I still feel a lil sad about this. And after dinner we were leaving and suddenly Mandy found out my first ex and his gf were eating outside the restaurant (their seats are outside). I was panic cuz I haven't met him for a long long time. So I decided to pretend not seeing hime and rapidly walk away. Actually I've been thinking about talking to him again but I don't think I was prepared to see him, especially in this case.

    And then this morning I found out a letter which I thought it's from my second ex so I opened it and read, and surprisingly found out it's from first ex.
I don't have much memories about us but reading the words he wrote me makes me feel really sad. I already forget all the hatreds back then, now I can only think why I would hurt someone who loved me so much.  

    I wish I would never hurt someone who loves me. And it's so lucky to have someone loves you. I waste the chances.

   yeah I'm not that sad just feel lil blue about relationships. And Damn I want a boyfriend so much!!!! though I've been hunting cute girls but I still want a boyfriend! (not convincing at all)

 get a boy back or we will be blue together.
or plan B you and I make a couple. (I recommend you the first plan)


done I'm going to sleep, ciao.