Hello dear Pin Ren,
(why do I write in the form of a letter?)
My life here has been so boring, so dull. I thought this journey,
this adventure should be very interesting! Well I mean, it's not bad. Nothing
dreadful happens and I didn't get discriminated against so far (at least not
that I can perceive it.) But nothing fun happens either. I didn't get to know
any American now (except for my roommates), which I already know it's hard
before I got here. But I actually didn't meet any international students that I
sincerely like so far. I think I am so unsociable now but I don't mean to be
so. I just haven't met anyone that I am willing to try hard to be friends with.
I really hope that I can meet someone who can make me feel "hey he/she is
so nice and so interesting! I like him/her and I want to be friends with him/her!"
But if I didn't really meet someone like this, it's okay. It’s just that
this four month will feel longer, I guess.
You know what? This kind of lead to another problem. I think I’m independent
enough and (sometimes) capable of doing lots of things by myself. But I can’t!
For one thing, there’s literally no place to have fun around campus. All the interesting
stuff requires a car or a public transportation, which is still pretty far
because I have to walk there. For another, Maryland is a state that has
relatively high crime rate, so we shall not wander around outside after dark.
But I have no good company here. It’s actually not that big a deal because I
have lots of reading and assignments awaiting me. But now the thing that bothers
me is that, I want to go to the 1975 performance! Yet it’s not a concert, it’s
just a live performance in a live house, which I think is pretty dangerous for
me to go alone at night. Even if I’m willing to ask the friends who I currently
don’t really enjoy being with to go with me, I don’t think they’re interested
in this. = = The 1975 is so nameless.
Or is it because I really miss you guys so
that all these problems exist? I really miss fooling around with you. I think
it’s bad that I am kind of obsessing with things and my relationships back in
Taiwan. I want to feel there’s no estranging with anyone at all, but maybe it’s
this thought that pulls my feet and makes me having trouble enjoy my life here.
Now I feel sad after writing this. L I haven’t really think of these things before I write.
By the way, I think my speaking skill hasn’t
made any progress (maybe because my lack of people to talk to!!!). I am more
daring to speak but I still speak poorly. Oh well.
Hope to hear from you soon J Have a great new semester!
I don't know exactly the situation there, but I think you just got frightened or something. I mean I'm not that out-going person, either, but you're in some place that nobody knows you, why don't you give it a try? People won't know you until you try to know them and if you trust the drama, you can ask them out! Lol There must be some guys in your classes that you want to know them, if not, just make them know you, so that they have some activities they might ask you to go. Otherwise the best way is joining a club. It's just couple weeks there take it easy!! It won't be that boring then I'm sure.
回覆刪除And about the 1975 concert I think you don't have to concern that much, just ask someone to go with you. Maybe he or she then become one of their fans, if not that's ok, too. Follow your dream no matter how much it cost! Few people might die but that's worth it, right? XD
刪除yeah i'll try to get myself into a club!! Hopefully a sports club so that i can exercise at the same time but meanwhile i suck at sports lol this is hard
回覆刪除and okay i'll definitely ask someone to go to the concert with me!
well thanks for cheering for me :) it means and helps a lot!